Life has been a little crazy lately and it has been regularly punctuated with high levels of stress and anxiety in this house. I am trying very hard to evaluate the most important parts of my life and to prioritise those things in order to save my sanity somewhat. I couldn’t decide what to do with my blog as I felt as though it was just one more thing taking up my time and putting pressure on me. You see, I find that thinking of things to blog about can be quite challenging. However, I think that I do need it here and that I should just forget about trying to be a blogger that I am clearly not and just write about being me.
Life as me and in the HealthyKidsHappyMama home. I work 4 days a week in a very emotionally demanding job. I need to face up to the fact that I don’t have time to plan out activities for my children and meticulously photograph them. I barely have the time to feed them properly…kidding.
What I want is to spend as much time as possible with them and doing things together as a family and doing things for myself – rather than for other people. This means that I have had to put a big brake on my voluntary work with the ABA. When you end up in a pile of tears and a massive anxiety attack because of something you do in a voluntary capacity you know that it is time to step back.
The other thing that I really need to make time for is exercise. I have been making small efforts over the past few weeks to get back into some sort of a routine but I think that I need something more structured. A commitment that I put out to the world and stick to through the good times and bad. I attempted the 12wbt challenge last year and pulled out part way in. Part of the reason is because I didn’t really plan and prepare very well and I was far to perfectionist and hard on myself. In reality I just need to get myself together, create some good habits and as Michelle bridges would say JFDI.
I am undecided as to whether I will formally do the 12wbt or just follow the program from my print outs from last time. Although it would be good to have support through the forums and maybe even consider going along to the finale party as something to look forward to at the end. My plan is to start as I mean to go on and start now with the print outs and the meal plan from last time and decide next weekend exactly what I am going to do. Whatever I decide I need to see it through.